The First Trimester

Now that the news is out, I think it important to write down what we have experienced so far this pregnancy. Considering my brain went away to my belly, I am bound to forget.

On Monday, December 13th, I woke up feeling different. Throughout the day I kept wondering if I was pregnant, but kept shaking it off so I wouldn't get my hopes up. After a miscarriage 3 months earlier, I couldn't take looking at the worst straight line ever seen on a pregnancy test. After getting home from work, I couldn't take the wondering anymore and peed on the stick. I set it down on the counter and walked away, wanting to give the test the required 3 minutes process. I was so apprehensive when I walked back into the bathroom, but couldn't contain myself when instead of a negative, there was a plus! I cried and called Garrett right away.

That night I had Garrett give me a priesthood blessing. I couldn't help but feel terrified that we'd miscarry again. Throughout the blessing I felt peace and new that this was the real thing, however, there was a part where I was told there would be challenges with this pregnancy. It scared me, but I put faith in the Lord and knew it would all work out.

So far everything has worked out. We have experienced two very challenging situations, but we have been able to face them and come out on top. I have been advised not to over-exert myself in any way, which has been hard. My pride is hurt when I see Garrett coming home after a 10-hour day, only to push the vacuum around the house or cook dinner. I have always been independent and it's been a learning experience to let go and allow myself to be served.

I have been very nauseous since day one, but feel so lucky to have those feelings. Before, when we miscarried, I never felt any symptoms. Even though sometimes it isn't fun, I actually am grateful for the sickness I feel. It is a reassurance that everything is okay.

Now we're to 13 1/2 weeks and pregnancy is beginning to settle in. Pants are getting tighter, moodiness is an everyday occurrence (poor Garrett), and my face has never seen so many red things all over it. Even so, nothing can take away from the miracle that we have been waiting for!

Garrett has been wonderful this whole time! He rubs my aching feet, cleans our house, puts up with my antics and makes sure I am as comfortable as can be, all while working full time and going to school full time. It brings tears to my eyes to think of all exhaustion he's going though. Thank you. Love you and our baby more than life itself!